wow, honestly there are so many things I regret this semester. not going for classes, sleeping so much, having absolutely no motivation to enjoy myself here in melbourne. the first thing I did when my feet touched melbourne ground was to find out exactly how long I had before I could fly back home. I have basically lived the past 3 months in a haze, blurring out everything around me and numbing feelings of homesickness. I have isolated myself from God, church, and friends here. It was just easier to sit at home under my blanket and sleep the days away you know? Time passed faster then and all I really wanted was for nov1st to come.
next year, I'm not going to make the same mistake. why let this opportunity and the next 2 years I have here in melbourne be a blur? next year, I will push my lazy being off my bed every day to attend my tutorials and lectures no matter how early they are. I will think actively and engage in discussions because they're good for me. I will go to church and pray. I will look for a job. I will not live my life holidays to holidays anymore. why should my life only begin when I return to singapore?
this space has gotten way too open . maybe i'll just twitter or tumblr whenever i feel like there's a need to say something
Friday, 02 October 2009
I've been absolutely unproductive since Tuesday night/Wed morn & I'm thinking that maybe I should change the layout of my room to promote a higher work rate/min. But my room is kind of small with strange door positions (seriously, there are 3 different routes to leading into my room), so honestly there aren't many changes I can make.
+ the sight of that empty cereal box on my desk is really depressing.
wow what a sad morning to wake up to: the sky's all overcast & its raining & it feels like the aircon is switched on. It kinda reminds me of Singapore when I'd awake to the heartbeat of raindrops & the churning of the aircon. & I'd run to my bookshelf to grab a book before snuggling back under my comforter. Yeah, I guess I kinda miss Singapore &
home, & all the things that could've been.
yeah bcos i can't just pick up the phone & call my best friends
isn't it sad I spend half my year wishing that time would go by faster
Wednesday, 16 September 2009
21st sept: GNR in-class presentation 29th sept: GNR contact books due 1st oct: PR group presentation 9th oct: 2500 word Mass Media essay 10th oct: sats 12th oct: GNR soft news story due 16th oct: school ends 19th to 24th oct: Flare 26th oct: 1500 word Hist&Tech essay 28th oct: PR plan due 1 nov: home.
Sunday, 13 September 2009
mayyyybe not.
Saturday, 12 September 2009
(After watching The September Issue, I've come to realise that she really is queen. Long live Anna!)
I suddenly felt like blogging and writing a lot but by the time my page loaded, what I wanted to say kinda left me. Just like all the previous times I've wanted to blog.
Anw, I've come to realise how unfocused I am! I seriously need to visit the library and gym more often. No more procrastinating! Got to ace this semester, or at least bring all my grades up to a D. ++ I need to stop snacking so much and regain self-control and discipline! I've gotten mega lazy to visit the gym or do any form of exercise other than (once-a-week) dance and (almost never) yoga. But this shall change! Bcos while shopping yesterday I freaked out majorly & almost died when I saw what I saw.
So for the next 8 weeks or so (ranked in order of importance!): Drink a lot of water Library Gym Attend all tutorials (except maybe H&T) Yoga Sleeping less Shoppingz (or maybe not) Supernatural
(I'm so proud of myself, I'm not running off to stuff my face with the sushi waiting for me on the counter)
